We can all
look at our lives and see the areas that we have
been the most wounded in, the most hurt, the
years of my life I wrestled with an intense
feeling of shame along with a heavy blanket of
depression which fell over me quite often.
washed over me down into the depths of my being,
telling me I was useless and in the way…that I
would never be anything to look at, or hear, or
depression was like peering out at the world
threw a small locked window.
trapped inside my head, burdened by my fears
which held me down like thick shackles about me.
I longed for freedom, and grew envious of those
running freely outside in the sun.
It was the
Holy Spirit who began to teach me that I had to
rise up and unlock the door.
actually quite free, only a prisoner to my own
mind and thought.
So I began
to fight…because you see, the Lord bought my
freedom for me long ago…and I wanted to live in
it with every part of my being.
Now when the
shame comes over me I speak truth of who I
am…that I am created perfectly by a God who is
perfect and blameless.
that shamed me so for so long…began to come into
light and I began to realize I had been forgiven
of them long ago by the ultimate judge. As
this became a reality to me, I began taking back
the ground to my freedom which the dark one had
stolen through lies for so long.
also, each time that dark depressive cloud would
wash over me, that I could choose to feel what
it was telling me I felt…or I could choose to
fight for joy. I began forcing myself to
laugh and making myself see the whole big
picture of my life instead of the relentless
illusions of my failures which the enemy tried
to feed me over and over again.
We must take
back the ground in our lives that has plagued us
with sorrow, hopelessness, fear and and a sense
NOT A FAILURE.
called of the ultimate power…God…and you are
relentlessly…and never ever give up until you
have rightfully taken back every last piece of
your God given ground.