All my life I lived feeling like a helpless
victim to a cruel world.
I battled severe depression and felt many times
forgotten by God and lost in a dark mess of lies
that had grown up deep inside of my mind.
I lived years this way, trying to be the
faithful martyr and never truly feeling a very
strong sense of self or vision for my life.
When I painted this, it was around the time that
my Creator began to show me that he had given me
the power over my own life.
I began to realize I was not a religious
slave…or I should say I began to realize I
didn’t have to be a slave to religion any
longer. God began to peel back the lies from my
eyes that my life would never truly belong to me
and He began to show me the truth of who
At the time I painted this I cleaned houses full
time for my income. One night I had a dream and
in the dream I was cleaning a massive and grand
hotel lobby. There was a man at the desk who I
believe represented Jesus. He came up to me and
gently touched my arm. “I called you here to
live and enjoy, this is who I see you to be.” He
said gently to me. Following His words I was
suddenly standing in a large and beautiful
meadow and I was laughing with flowers in my
hair…and I was so beautiful. The dream woke me
to a new reality.
I began to sense the power of being his creation
and the tremendous creative choice he had given
me in walking out my own life. I began to see
that society, especially religious society,
loves to feel in control and set people into
perfect religious existences and formats.
But no, this wasn’t what God desired for me on
this earth. He had given me the reigns of choice
and a heart that beat for TRUTH. I began to feel
empowered with possibility, more than I ever had
More and more the world began looking brighter
as I walked out of my shadows, out of my
isolation, out of my self-perceived storms and
chose to look up at the sunlight coming through,
just as the woman in my painting.
God began teaching me how to dance in who I was
and let excitement wash over me of who I would
He wishes to do the same in you, maybe He
already has begun. Maybe you look at this
painting and understand because you have already
walked this road.
Wherever you stand, I hope this painting will
You are a woman/
man created with free will and creative power
over your life…to walk FREE.